November 28th

Happy gobble gobble everyone!

Good news on the surgery front, we have a date! December 11th but unsure of the time since they do all the IVF people first. I will know for sure what time on December 9th, so please send good vibes this way! I talked to Dr P on the phone yesterday and he eluded to the fact that IUI #1 may not have worked because of the polyp, it's about 4-6 mm which isn't huge but if you consider that your uterus is like a deflated balloon, then yeah it is! He hopes that after the polyp removal, we will be able to cycle again the very next cycle..although that might be around cruise time :( so we will see. No need in getting stressed about January yet!

Here's to keeping the hope alive of becoming a mommy in 2009!!!

November 21st

We are officially on a break..they found the polyp this morning without even putting the saline in. Waiting for a call back from the RE's office to schedule the polyp removal and picking up a script for BCP tonight to make sure I don't ovulate..and flushing 2 days worth of clomid down the tubes. I am officially broken....

November 18th

So, Lizzie reared her ugly head yesterday morning which probably explains why Sunday and Monday I felt like I was jumping out of my skin!! My progesterone levls had to be dropping fast, as I don't know how high they got on all that prog. but it has to drop below 1 to trigger your period to arrive. I'm a little sad, but go my new set of dates for this cycle. My saline u/s is this Friday, so I will know then if we get to have an IUI this month or not

"The waiting is the hardest part..." Tom Petty

November 15th

So, it's official..cycle #1 is a negative :( I have to wait again until Lizzie shows her bloody head and then start Clomid cycle #2 with a wonderful saline u/s thrown in mid cycle to look for this possible uterine polyp which they may remove if they see it..hoping not since that cancels the IUI for that cycle. I feel broken today! :(

November 12th

Ok, so I have been good with no test cheating...but I am going insane knowing that a test "may" show a positive result now..even though it still may be too early, so maybe false negative! Ahhh...Sunday cannot come quick enough!

I am expecting it not to have worked as I have had some cramping and am as hormonally driven as I have been in a while! Here's to hoping!!!

November 6th

So, tomorrow is my very first affectionately titled WTF appointment with Dr P. This appt is basically to go over your whole cycle, sperm counts, follie size, etc to see what if anything we should tweak for next cycle. I guess my confusion lies in the fact that , they won;t draw my blood for the pregnancy test until the 16th...so who knows if I need another cycle??? Hope springs eternal and again, I'd love to have this work the first time!! Alas, this is where I will be tomorrow at 9 am...finding out my dread for next month. Just got my next dose of Clomid in the mail yesterday...I'd like to be able to flush them!!!!

TTFN!

November 4th

This progesterone supplement thing is for the birds..I feel like I have peed my pants several times today alone..nope just nastiness from the inserts! Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww..but if it works out..then I will deal! Here's to 12 weeks worth of pantyliners!!

November 1st

So, today was big day #1, we had our very first IUI this morning, followed by the same thing again tomorrow. Sean's sample looked good, and we went back an hour later and they checked me in brought in the tube with my name on it and put 2 million little swimmers right into the cocktail party whether they were dressed right or not. They said his numbers looked great, and I should expect a little cramping and spotting today and probably tomorrow. The cramping hasn't been too bad..except for like an hour ago when it was getting really bad and then I passed a HUGE clot. I got scared and called the answering service and the nurse called me back and said that was probably because they had a bit of trouble putting in the speculum (I have a back facing cervix..go figure like I need any more worries!). She said to only be concerned if it was soaking a pad an hour and then call back if I started a fever. The cramping slowed down again and is manageable now. She also hinted that the increased cramping could be a good sign that things are going well in there and not necessarily "to get the clot out" like I thought. They are so nice there, and I'm super comfortable there! I would love for you guys to NEVER know how this is..although I am still hoping for a miracle! Can someone blow some sunshine into my girly bits??? LOL

Here's to a few millions more sperm invited to the cocktail party tomorrow!!